Day One:

Day one

Day one after hundreds

Hundreds or more

Of loving you more

Than I thought was ever possible

 

Day one 

Of still loving you

But not being yours

Because there’s more to being with you

Than love

 

The laughs late at night

Kisses under the blankets

Holding hands in the pockets of big puffy jackets

Car rides with the view only being you,

Sitting right next to me

 

I can’t fathom that its done

I can’t process that it’s over

Day one once more

What if it isn’t over?

I have never grieved like this

Over somebody that isn’t gone, just different

 

But it’s day one 

And I already feel different

They always talk about heartache

But my heart has never ached

Until it knew it wasn’t yours anymore

 

I knew it could never be easy

Nothing important is ever going to be easy

But nothing hard is any easier to get used to

Or maybe it is

And one day I will know

 

One Day, but not on Day One